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The Body's Ways to Express Traumatic Memories & Feelings That Can Find No Other Outlet I am totally disabled ( though I often look fine ) and the crash is always inevitable. My M.S. is in flare after every activity and all the overlapping syndromes that come with it. Sleep can't come fast enough - but the guilt & blame are right on top of me immediately. I lay in bed - which is where I am most of the time; upset that my children don't have a better put-together mother; and I think about what brought me to this point. I was exposed to a lot of toxins at my last job and coupled with a lifetime of emotional verbal, psychological, sexual & physical abuse, repressing my anger and "not telling" ( aka - being a good girl ) -- my immune system snapped. My body snapped along with it. Pain for me is endless & relentless. I spend a lot of the time I am not with my kids - coping with what illness is doing to, has done to or may do to me. I get so fed up wit...