BARBARA'S TCHATZKAHS

When I first heard this song in 1991 I instantly loved it. I also loved Tori Amos' soaring lyrics and music for many of her songs. Edgy and raw and honest. As I learned more about Amos' public outreach to rape victims; as she was a rape victim herself -- I learned to appreciate Tori Amos even more. As an abuse victim & survivor - I related to this song. I also relate to the aftermath of abuses -- in which the abuser classically "crucifies" the victim by blaming them, shaming them and denial of the abuse. Often, if the victim empowers themselves by telling and naming the abuse & abuser -- the victim is "crucified" for doing so by both perpetrators and "bystanders" in our pervasively 'blame the victim' skewed culture that chronically tells victims to shut up about it; when what they really need to heal - is to TELL and be validated. This blog post excerpt from Jason Sechrest on the Kabbalistic principles in "Crucify...

Every day that I read or watch the news - more of the devastating effects of Destructive Narcissists and their decisions & behavior are all around us. Lisa & I mention this to each other frequently. Sometimes I wonder, are we the only ones who see this? I have always believed that Britney Spears was the victim of a Destructive Narcissist (Kevin Federline). Federline is all about himself, comes off as the better parent, does all he can to keep his all-important 'image' pallatable - but I watched Britney's acting out after their split with horror and compassion. Shaving off her hair, drinking, possibly drugging, hobnobbing with paparazzi... Britney didn't know if she was coming or going it seemed. Her race from one personal train-wreck to another appeared to be a desperate attempt to run away from pain. Acting out is a hallmark of PTSD, can go on for months are years, and in my opinion - she had it. That desperate attempt to avoid the devastating hurt one feels wh...