BARBARA'S TCHATZKAHS

The last few years have been hard for me and its been difficult to get back to my purposeful life - which I have devoted first: to being the mother my children need and deserve and second: to serve God by helping others. I know this is what my murdered therapist would have told me to do. It is what she encouraged me to do, among other things and was my silent cheerleader in everything I did do. Also, it is what she devoted her life to doing - helping others. For some time after her murder I "sat a personal shiva" for the relationship which is now gone, and which I and everyone who knew her, had ripped from them. I stayed and even revisit that grief on occassion. That's exactly what she would have told me to do - take as long as you need and don't let anyone tell you to just "get over it." And I am going on with life. As my beloved Nana (who lost her husband suddenly when she was 48, and her son just 4 years before her death) said - "Keep livin...

About a week ago a friend of mine told me she was diagnosed with cancer. In my shock, with my brain going 1000mph - I did the all-to-human thing of putting my foot in my mouth. I tried three times to apologize. She told me never to speak to her again. I didn't feel like hearing any more verbal assaults dissecting my 'motives' for putting my foot in my mouth, so it was mutual. She and I had been through a very traumatic experience together at one time so that was always hanging between us. She crossed over today. I hope wherever she is - she knows how deeply sad I am and that I will always care about her. I hope she knows peace, fulfillment and joy of Hashem's presence. The 17th day in the Jewish month of Tammuz, Jews the world over fast and lament to commemorate the many calamities that have befallen our people on this ominous day. The purpose of such fasts in the Jewish calendar is, according to Rabbi Eliyahu Kitov's Book of Our Heritage, "to awaken hearts...

Any reader of this blog knows the respect and admiration I have for writer Kathy Krajco. I have used her writing her many times - and will do so in the future. She & I often traded emails as we both had being the child of a narcissist in common. Kathy had a common sense style of writing that was insightful and illuminating. Kathy passed away unexpectedly on May 9, 2006. Her loss is a profound shock & palpable. 'The L-rd gave, and the L-rd took back, may the Name of the L-rd be Blessed!' - Beruriah CLICK HERE FOR KATHY'S BLOG JANESVILLE, WI- Kathy S. Krajco, age 56, of Janesville, died unexpectedly in her home. She will be missed by those whose lives she touched. She was born in Richland Center on April 12, 1952, the daughter of Frank and Adeline C. (Cervenka) Krajco, who preceded her in death. Kathy loved the companionship of her dog, Pierre. She is survived by her sister, Terese Krajco of Janesville; many uncles, aunts, cousins, other relatives and friends. ...

BUH-BYE REV. FALWELL I was going to write something about the deceased Jerry Falwell but then I stopped by one of my favorite sites, JSpot . Jeremy Burton did a much better job of sending off the Reverend so read it by CLICKING HERE: MOURNING JERRY FALWELL I wanted to try to say one nice thing about this guy but I couldn't think of anything except, he's dead. Have mercy on his soul, Hashem. He needs it. PLEASE CLICK HERE TO JBLOG ME