Missing My Father


8th Yartzheit

Ay'el malei rachamim shochayn bameromim ham'tzay menucha nechona al kanfay ha-sh'cheena be'maalot kedoshim ut'ho'rim k'zohar harakia mazhee'rim et nishmat Robert James C., Sr. sh'halach le'olamo b'Gan-Eayden tehay menuchato.

Ana ba'al harachamim hastirayhu be'sayter kenafecha le'olamim ve'titzror bitz'ror hachayim et nishmato, Ado-noy Hu'nachalato ve'yaunach b'shalom al mishkavo v'nomar Amein.

When you left, Dad - all the oxygen went out of the room. You filled up a place like no one else I have met, or may meet.

You made mistakes just like we all do. But I am still very proud to be your daughter.

Thank you for validating me, when no one else had the courage to.

Thank you for understanding me or making the effort to, unconditionally, when no one else did.

Until we see each other again. - Barbara

Comments

Keli Ata said…
Shalom Barbara :)

You have my heartfelt condolences on the death of your father. Even though it's been five years, I am offering condolences now since I didn't know you five years ago.

G-d You will see bless your father and all police officers.

You will be reunited with him one day.
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