My Immortal



The first time I heard this song was a little over 4 years ago while I was in the hospital. Sorry to be like a teenager posting lyrics on my blog - but this is one of my favorite songs, Amy Lee has a great voice and it really does say it all about trauma, soul-rape & emotional pain and yes, PTSD.

Hey, it is MY blog!

by Evanesence

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating mind
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along




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